I decided on you, don’t you get that? I decided on you. I don’t want to go fucking other people and then walk around feeling thrilled and then sad, or empty, or whatever. I like the smell of your hair, and I like the sound of your voice, and I fucking decided on you.
I just want someone to choose me everyday. Someone who will choose to love me everyday. Through the good and the bad, through thick and thin. Someone who will put me first. Someone who doesn’t want to lose me. Someone who values me and appreciates what I do for them. Someone who fights for me when shit gets tough. Someone who is clingy with me. Someone who can just never seem to get enough of me.
Kiss me in public. Put your arm around me so people know I’m with you. Call me babe in front of our waiter. Pull me in because I’m just not quite close enough to you. Make me watch that one tv show that’s your guilty pleasure. Tell me your biggest fear and I’ll promise to protect you. Kiss me at red lights because if you don’t then I’ll kiss you. Show me the one song you can never listen to without crying. Don’t hide the tiny details about you. Because I’ll remember every one of them.
You know what? I’m done. I’m done with anyone who cant make up to me, or make time for me, I don’t deserve that, I deserve people who care, who check up on me, no, who want to check up on me, people who can’t let me stay mad at them, who’d always wanna make sure I’m happy, loving myself and living my life, who support me and lift my standards so high because they really wanna make me feel all loved and heard, with everything in them, they’d always inspire me to be better, to do better, to love myself and to see beauty in it, and I’m unimaginably grateful i can actually say i have this kind of people in my life and i swear i’ll hold on to them as tight as I possibly can because honestly, i would never want to let anyone like that go
If we’re “talking” I need to know what “we” are. You want a friendship? Let me know so I can treat you like a homie. You’re talking to other people? Let me know so I don’t cut anyone off. You’re only talking to me? Let me know so I only commit to you. You like me? Tell me. You’re not feeling it? Let me know so we can stop talking. I’m not going to catch wrong feelings for someone that’ll leave me hanging and I don’t want to lead someone on when I don’t want what they want.
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I will accept whether you do love me or not. In any given case, if you do not love, do not worry, there will always be someone capable of loving me.
original: “Me conformaré con que me quieras o no. Y en todo caso, si tú no me quieres, no te angusties por mí, siempre habrá alguien capaz de quererme.”
(via fyp-psychology)
My desires in a relationship have changed over time. I no longer want someone who promises to always love me and never leave me, I need someone who understands that life happens and sometimes things don’t work out. I don’t want someone who sugar coats things and never gets angry with me, I need someone to tell me how it really is and put me in my place. I need to be able to go five hours without talking to you and not feel lost or incomplete. I am complete without you. But with you, I want to be so much better. I want to be stronger with you. I want us to grow together and help each other grow individually. I don’t need you, but I really fucking want you. And this may not work out, but the fact that you understand all of this and this how our relationship works, makes me think we’ve got a pretty good shot.
